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STORY-3 I WANNA LEAVE

 I am very much anxious to know when the college will reopen. It's been 9 months now. I can't handle anymore online classes. It's getting very serious now. It's not happening. Even my family is getting annoyed with me. I was thinking of staying in a private hostel but those are costly and they doesn't provide good food or accomodation. It is not possible for me now to handle that much amount of money right now after paying a huge amount to my college for disgusting online classes. Today my mom called me 'mad', i will not tell about the others, they just don't understand what i am going through. They just need to blame me. I was away from home just to escape from this harsh world. But again i end up here. It's not working. Motivating yourself telling that everything is gonna be alright is not happening. I can't. It is so disgusting. So disgusting. Tomorrow i have examination, but my mental state is not allowing me to read, i don't know what is...
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STORY-2, WHY ALL BAD THINGS HAPPENED AT THE SAME TIME?

  Why all bad things happen at the same time? The question striked me last night. I was very depressed and distracted because of ongoing online classes and exams due to corona virus pandemic. It's been a year since I am home. I am having some mental issues and was expecting to reopen the college in January. But now, everyone is saying that it may not reopen until July, 2021. That was just the beginning of my first bad thing.  After having my dinner, I had a fight with my boyfriend ( not exactly boyfriend, i don't even know what's going on). It was such a bullshit fight, like blaming each other for all the bad things happened in our life. ( I would like to suggest you that please never ever say a word whenever you had a fight like this, It can only eat your brain and nothing else. If you don't even understand each other, the relationship will never work, no matter how much fight you had). After that, I tried to ignore his messages and tried to sleep. This morning, I woke...
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STORY-1

 Life I am going more and more deep inside my mind everyday to discover myself, to discover who i am, to discover what i want, to discover what i meant for. And then, I saw myself sitting in a mountain or a forest or nearby a sea, a river. Yes, I am always a nature person. But the more I am dreaming of the world i want, the more i am losing my present. My present with the friends whom i know but i don't, my family whom i care but don't care, the problems all around me, coding competition, semester marks and my love, I am slowly losing everything and the will of getting them back is no more. God only knows where i am heading towards. It is either to a dark world or to a world that has everything i love.
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